Well, each member of the audience of one... I want to see how I can use this to advantage.
I'm not really keen on sharing with the entire world, but there may be someone out there who's interested for some indeterminate reason... One never knows their ultimate purpose here... until they do.
I want to write. I've organized folders of periods and important experiences in my life, and so far they are empty but for two entries, in the early days last month when enthusiasm was high.
Haven't given up on it, but this form of journaling the here and now might be a good place to start the cycle.
I admit it. Change is hard for me. Partly it's the transformed migraine, but I think my nature also makes it so. My tendency to look ahead to every future possible and worry about them all in transition. 'Plan ahead' gone berserk. No remote. Radio.
And then there's a place that remains out of the fray. Can't describe adequately. Each phrase raises its hand hopefully and then gets shot down when it doesn't prove to be a perfectly expansive fit. Back the cycle goes, but that place remains still.
I'd like to take a moment to give a shout out to the Dandy Warhols for keeping it real in the Odditorium. A year's subscription and they give you whatever they want to put out there. I find if generous. Good for you guys - you make me feel good - joyful and serene, depending. Sometimes both. Here's the link for those interested... anyone with me?
That and one of the kittens blissfully done with kneading my jacket for the time being and in some beautiful dream.... made me think of this memory:
There was once a Petula Clark song from when I was a kid - long time gone - that had the lyrics:
"There's a cat in the window. I want to fly out the window." And my seven-year younger wee sister used to sing at the top of her lyrical lungs, "I want to JUMP OUT the window," in alll seriousness. Made a huge impact on my life somehow. Odd little moment summed up so much.
That same little shvester will be visiting soon. I better do my minimalist getting ready.